Sunday, October 23, 2011

Crazy, Stupid Love.

Hello again!

It's 130am in the morning and I have just finished watching that movie.
You know why I'm a big fan of movies?
They never fail to inspire and remind me of what really matters in life.
Yes, that includes the movie Crazy, Stupid Love.

So here is what I've got from the movie.
Things will not always work my way. Yeah, I might not be as lucky as Carl who met his soulmate at the age of 15. I might fall in love a few times, get dumped and rejected a lot, dated girls, and whatnot. But eventually what really matters is what I feel. I mean, I still believe in my one true love and soulmate that is somewhere out there. And it doesn't matter if it is gonna take a year or ten years or fifty years, I will find the one. I will not rest until I find her. And guess what, it won't be a fairytale. When I find her, we may not get along well. We might quarrel and we may stop talking. But here is what is really important. I won't give up. No matter how painful it is too hold on, I won't let go. Yeh, sorry to disappoint you but I'm a 19-year-old who still believes in the old notions of love taken straight out of the Hollywood movies.
The moral of the story. I want to be like Carl. Yes, I might do stupid things that would tumble my world over. I might consider giving up a few times. But then, everytime I fought the urge of giving up, I know I grow to be a stronger person. I want to someday build a family that I can be proud of and who can be proud of me. I had not given up and would not give up no matter how sucks it is to hold on. After all, I believe in the saying that twenty, thirty years down the road, I will regret things that I didn't do more than things that I did. I don't want to live a life of regret. I will hold on.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

The one exam before IB

Hello again!

After a two-month refrain from typing on my blog, I have finally settled down and I now have enough time to spare for a short post. The time I spent away from my blog has been an exciting last quarter of my high school life. What I began 15 years ago when I first stepped into my kindergarten classroom I finally am going to conclude in slightly more than one month - EDUCATION. Well, actually that is not exactly the case. I am definitely going to move on to a higher level of education, hopefully in a university of my dream. Nonetheless, let us take the next one month as my last one month of education, for the sake of reading pleasure :p

Now I will touch on the main issue I want to blog about: prelim exams. In case you do not know, preliminary examination is arguably the single most important exam I will ever sit for in my life. It is so important that perhaps only the real IB exam has the caliber to at most equal its level of importance. The reason is obvious - prelim result will be used to craft my predicted grades which would then make up the part of my academic achievement in my university applications. Initially, I admit that I was nervous and anxious if I would not be able to do well in the exam. Moreover, I did not put nearly as much effort in prelim as compared to the mid-year common test. For the reason, I prayed super hard prior to this exam that God will grant me the results that I desire. After all, I have faith that God will give the miracle when we need it the most - and I believe this is the time.

After more than two weeks of grueling exam experience, the result was finally released last weekend. Indeed, God proved Himself faithful again. My percentage in virtually every single subjects improve by an average of 10 percents. My IB points also jumped up by 4 points. What struck me was not my relatively sterling results for my own standards but rather the fact that I would have easily achieved 2 IB points lower than what I have got had it not been for God. Imagine the situation: I got precisely 80% for Chemistry which means that a single loss of mark would result in me not getting a 7 points in the subject. I hardly passed the grade boundary for 6 points in Maths by a mere 1-2% which further testified how God must have played a role in my exam. God is faithful, indeed.

During the course of the exam, I kept reminding myself of what Pastor Kong has told us in the church weeks before - "Do what you can do and God will do what you can't do." With that boost of faith, I decided that I would trust God to lead me through the test and I have now emerged victorious. God has never disappointed me in my 19 years and 8 months of existence in this world, not even a once. Why would I bother to doubt that he would let me down in the time to come, then? I trust God that things will take care for themselves for those believe. Amen.