TQQQQ...

Thank you to…

GOD… for anything and everything I could not mention one by one

Papah, Mamah, & Ema… for all your advices and punishment which I find EXTREMELY useful for my life now

Deiver, my brother… for helping me dealing with Papah and Mamah and for being my friend for soooo many years

Michael Ivan… for being my friend and supporting me in the midst of hard time, u are much more mature than I am

Gide, BJ, Sunson… for being with me before I could find new friends here. U guys rock..

Kenny… for being the toughest girl I have ever met in my life..u do look much more beautiful when u smile, so keep smiling =)

Ooh Lilis… for all your advices and councelings whenever I need it the most.. U have impacted my life A LOT

Everyone who have helped me to be who I am… THANK YOU!!

GOD BLESS^^

Is my life perfect yet?

What is a perfect life?

Doing well in school, able to play guitar, soccer captain, not-bad-looking, have a happy family, have good and best friends...
*are these enough to reach a perfect life?

???

Seems that something is missing... LOVE

Now this is what love is... to benefit others in expense of ourself

Do I qualify??

Wwaa exam is coming again!

Whoops it is 16th September today. It's been like 5 months ago since I started this blog but never posted for quite some time:p I still remember vividly when I wrote "exam time is much nicer than post-exam". Nah, I wonder how can I utter such irrational statement -.- Is it the statement or me who is irrational btw?

Now IT's really coming nearer and nearer. Last time I thought it's still one month to go but now it's just the matter of days before exam really starts. And have I been preparing so far? To some extent, I would say. I just don't want to disappoint anyone including myself for not being able to get good marks in this exam. I will prove that I can do it. Ganbatte!

But hey I feel something is missing to post a blog without mentioning her haha xp. Right now she must be preparing for her exams as well. I'm extremely proud of her. Even though she has to struggle really hard to get what she wants, she keeps persevering:D (jangan geer lek kamu baca ini wahaha:p)

I think enough for now cos prep time is coming soon in 20 mins. Good luck guys (and girl obviously:P) for your exams. GOD bless U all now and always =D =D

having a nightmare without even sleeping

today is actually quite nice. the wheather is good, i got my friends with me, birds are singing happily and so on and so forth blah blah blah...

it is not until tonight. i felt really weird: mixture of everything coming along together. cannot stand it anymore. need to talk to somebody: about her, home, HOW?

it is 2:29am now according to my watch. it means i have spent more than one hour just to listen to one song i like very much just since today (thanks to kenny). again, the weather is nice, i am able to keep myself in my good mood just for now.

i never kept myself awake until this late just to do nothing, again.. NOTHING. tomorrow my friends are going indo already. it means i will be nobody tomorrow. i cannot deny it: i will miss two of the most important figures in my life for now: my friends & her. miss her terribly.. cannot even stop thinking of her and go to sleep.

GOD help me. can you give me your way? HOW?
"when fall in love is a difficult thing to understand"

-hei-

read this

-BEDA ANTARA SUKA, SAYANG, DAN CINTA-

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang, kau akan memilikinya untuk keegoisanmu sendiri.

Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang, kau ingin sekali membuatnya bahagia dan bukan untuk dirimu sendiri.

Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang, kau akan melakukan apapun untuk kebahagiaannya walaupun kau harus mengorbankan jiwamu.

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya, maka kau akan bertanya,"Bolehkah aQ menciummu?".

Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang dan berada di sisinya, maka kau akan bertanya,"Bolehkah aQ memelukmu?".

Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya, maka kau akan bertanya,"Bolehkah aQ menggenggam erat tanganmu?".

SUKA adalah saat ia menangis, kau akan berkata,"Sudahlah, jangan menangis.".

SAYANG adalah saat ia menangis, kau akan menangis bersamanya.

CINTA adalah saat ia menangis, kau akan membiarkannya menangis di pundakmu,smbl berkata,"Mari Qta selesaikan masalah ini bersama.".

SUKA adalah saat kau melihatnya, kau akan berkata,"Ia sangat cantik dan menawan.".

SAYANG adalah saat kau melihatnya dari hatimu dan bukan matamu.

CINTA adalah saat kau meihatnya, kau akan berkata,"BuatQ, dia adalah anugrah terindah yang pernah Tuhan berikan padaQ.".

Pada saat org yang kau SUKA menyakitimu, maka kau akan marah dan tak mau lagi bicara padanya.

Pada saat org yang kau SAYANG menyakitimu,kau akan menangis untuknya.

Pada saat org yang kau CINTA menyakitimu,kau akan berkata,"Tak ap,, dia hanya tak tahu apa yg dia lakukan.".

Pada saat kau SUKA padanya,kau akan memaksanya untuk menyukaimu..

Pada saat kau SAYANG padanya,kau akan membiarkannya memilih..

Pada saat kau CINTA padanya,kau akan menantinya dengan setia dan tulus..

SUKA adalah kau akan menemaninya bila itu menguntungkan.

SAYANG adalah kau akan menemaninya saat ia membutuhkan.

CINTA adalah kau akan menemaninya saat bagaimanapun keadaannya.

SUKA adalah hal yang menuntut..

SAYANG adalah hal yang memberi dan menerima..

CINTA adalah hal yang memberi dengan rela..

Hehe tapi belum tentu y semuanya juga bener sesuai kenyataannya he7,, ^^,,

HER

Liburan telah tiba. Sementara ini lagi ngga ada kerjaan untuk dilakukan (meskipun homework menumpuk tapi rasanya ngga ada niat untuk mulai buat). Apakah lebih enak sibuk atau santai sih? Mungkin kalian berpikir pasti lebih enak santai dan pertanyaan seperti itu hanya ditanyakan oleh orang super bodoh (mungkin ada benarnya juga). Tapi, rasanya sekarang aku jadi merindukan hari-hari exam dan kegiatan belajar mati-matian yang kulakukan waktu itu.

Gila ya? Mungkin aja. Tapi menurutku hal yang paling menyiksa itu kalau kita ngga ada kerjaan apapun. BOSEN! Coz ngga ada yang bisa dikerjain, akhirnya waktu malah dipake sia-sia untuk main game ga guna. Ditambah lagi, kalo lagi nganggur begini te pikiran jadi melayang-layang. Akhir-akhirnya malah jadi kepikiran dia terus. Pusing. Enak juga si mikirin dia tapi ada ngga enaknya juga. Kalo lagi kepikiran dia tuh, kebayang trus muka lucunya gitu. Yah tapi wong ga bisa ketemu malah jadi menyiksa kan akhirnya? Emang si ngga lama lagi bisa ketemu lagi tapi dalam situasi begini yang ga lama itu jadi kerasa LAMAAAAAAAAAAAAA.................................

Tengkiu deh yang udah baca blog ini. Kadang-kadang kalo lagi stress enak nulis-nulis kaya gini. Hati jadi plong. Tapi masalahnya sekarang jadi tambah kepikiran dia lagi! TIDAAAKKK!!!

THIS

A word or two of yours
Why feels so different
Is it assurance?
Seems to be empty imagination

It seems to be just yesterday
When I first met you here
Now tell me how to differenciate
Between THIS thing or not

I'm longing for someone to come
Long time of searching for her
When will this journey's come to its end?
only GOD knows...

THIS thing
undescribable
pure and unlimited
sweet or bitter, who knows?

I know something has changed
THIS thing...
When T becomes L...
H becomes O...
I becomes V... and
S becomes E

There lies the true meaning of life

Keys that cannot be found in other places
Emotion which can be seen but cannot be seen
Novels that bring about the story of THIS
Names of every sweet stories ever
You have to know, THIS is LOVE

life is like a blackjack game

Life is a blackjack game. There are times when you win something. There are also times when you lose something or even everything. After going through my mid year exam, I really feel this is true. Subjects that I think will get good marks betrayed me. However, those that I scared the most surprisingly gave relatively good marks (read: Higher Malay). Life is just as unpredictable as playing blackjack. You cannot win anything if you dare not gamble or sacrifice something. I think enough for now on. Should be good enough for an opening blog:) Last but not least, trust GOD for everything is in his hands..