having a nightmare without even sleeping

today is actually quite nice. the wheather is good, i got my friends with me, birds are singing happily and so on and so forth blah blah blah...

it is not until tonight. i felt really weird: mixture of everything coming along together. cannot stand it anymore. need to talk to somebody: about her, home, HOW?

it is 2:29am now according to my watch. it means i have spent more than one hour just to listen to one song i like very much just since today (thanks to kenny). again, the weather is nice, i am able to keep myself in my good mood just for now.

i never kept myself awake until this late just to do nothing, again.. NOTHING. tomorrow my friends are going indo already. it means i will be nobody tomorrow. i cannot deny it: i will miss two of the most important figures in my life for now: my friends & her. miss her terribly.. cannot even stop thinking of her and go to sleep.

GOD help me. can you give me your way? HOW?
"when fall in love is a difficult thing to understand"

-hei-