Sunday, 3 July 2011

Hi all,

So it's 7:58 pm right now. On normal Sundays, I would have been down in the prep room right now. Thankfully, tomorrow is a holiday for us students (Youth Day,  sorry working peeps). I think my last blog post dates back to about one month ago?

I'm in the midst of the year 6's notorious mid year exams (well that's what our seniors said - almost impossible to score high). Since tomorrow is a holiday (read: study break), I want to spend 15 minutes writing about something which has been bugging my mind over the past few days, or perhaps weeks.

What I'm feeling right now: intense feeling of disappointment. In fact, it's more than just disappointment. It's like doing something that, although you know you shouldn't do, you still do anyway. And the effects are outrageous: it's like everything I've built so far all falling into pieces. Thank God I still have another day to reflect and think about this before my next paper starts (it's Chemistry paper on Tuesday). Sometimes I can't help but blaming my negative traits for all that has happened. I wish I could rewind time by pressing that "restart" button. I know I can't, though. I'll just wait patiently and whatever God wants to happen in life, let it happen.

"Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us" (Ephesians 3:20)

Adera - lebih indah

Adera - lebih indah

saat ku tenggelam dalam sendu

waktu pun enggan untuk berlalu

ku berjanji tuk menutup pintu hatiku

entah untuk siapa pun itu

semakin ku lihat masa lalu

semakin hatiku tak menentu

tetapi satu sinar terangi jiwa ku

saat ku melihat senyum mu

dan kau hadir, merubah segalanya

menjadi lebih indah

kau bawa cinta ku setinggi angkasa

membuat ku merasa sempurna

dan membuat ku untuk menjalani hidup

berdua dengan mu selama-lamanya

kaulah yang terbaik untuk ku

kini ku ingin hentikan waktu

biar kau berada di dekat ku

bunga cinta bermekaran dalam jiwaku

dan ku petik satu untukmu

dan kau hadir, merubah segalanya

menjadi lebih indah

kau bawa cinta ku setinggi angkasa

membuat ku merasa sempurna

dan membuat ku untuk menjalani hidup

berdua dengan mu selama-lamanya

kaulah yang terbaik untuk ku

ku percayakan seluruh hatiku padamu

kasihku..... satu janjiku, kau lah yang terakhir bagiku....

A random thought after the inaugural CHC Suntec service

10:54 pm and I just came back from the first City Harvest Church service at Suntec Singapore. After renting one hall in Expo to hold our services for about 6 years, God finally gave us our own place at the heart of the city. This is really in line with the church and Pastor Kong's principle of cultural mandate. A place in the central Singapore would enable us to reach out to more people besides the closer venue being closer from the boarding school.

This time I really want to talk about how I got to know CHC when I first came to Singapore in 2007. It was my senior, Ray, who introduced me to this church called City Harvest Church before I came to Singapore. After being awarded with the scholarship, I got to know some seniors who were already studying in Singapore. I also got to know Ray through MSN although we never really met each other before. It was quite funny to recall how everything fell into place at that time. In one of our conversations before I came here, Ray told me that he went to a church in Singapore with a lot of hot girls. He also promised to bring me there when I came. So at first, my intention of going to CHC was not to seek God at all.

Truth be said, I saw a lot of good-looking girls on my first visit to CHC. Moreover, one girl caught my eyes whom I got to know more as a very close friend later on. However, I must say that my decision to join CHC is one of the best decisions I ever made in my life. Not only it belongs to a very similar branch of Christianity as my church in Bandung, it is also the place where my life is transformed to be who I am now. In short, I am very thankful that God has brought me to CHC. Although initially my motivation was not exactly right, God has the power to turn bad things into positive ones. Thank you God :)

I have this strange habit of blogging one day before going home

Hello again!

It's been a while since the last time I blogged. I've been quite busy with A*STAR for the past one month. Today was my last working day and tomorrow I'll go home. So yea, I'm gonna tell you about what has happened for the past few months. In fact, there are so many things that happened this year.

I have been working in one of A*STAR's Research Institute, ICES which is an abbreviation for Institute of Chemical and Engineering Sciences. It was this place where top scientists from around the world invent stuffs in Chemistry and Chemical Engineering field. Since I aspire to become a Chemical Engineer myself one day, this place is like heaven to me. I got to see a lot of cool interesting stuffs which make me want to study Chem Engineering even more! My project itself is on bio-fuel where I got the chance to work alongside a top-notch scientist. My supervisor is a Thai PhD graduate who specializes in Petrochemical. It was a very interesting attachment indeed.

Next year I will be in Year 6 which is the last year of my high school journey. After that, I will finally go to university although I will be 2 years behind my friends who are in Indonesia. I don't know if I'm prepared for my last year yet. All I know is that my God will fight with me throughout the year and I'll emerge victorious for the glory of His name!

This year has been a lot of ups and downs for me. To be honest, my grades plunged compared to last year. I had a miserable time with a girl too. Still, I believe they are all lessons to be learned from God. There is a reason why He makes me go through this. I'll work harder next year to achieve my dream. I also believe that one day Miss Right is gonna show up right in front of my door :)

So yeah, I will go home tomorrow for about 10 days. During that break, I will also go to Pangandaran which is this beach site in Indonesia about 7 hours drive away from my hometown. I can't wait to chillax there :D

Yup yup I guess that's all for now. I need to pack up for tomorrow's trip. I'll write again soon next time!

Hi Singapore

So here I am again, back in my boarding school room.
I feel empty, timeless, lonely.
Is it possible to feel homesick even after being here for more than 3 years?
Luckily, I still have my best friend to chat with on MSN.
Oh when will this be over?
I'm also afraid that my decision to go home on 25th instead of 24th will be regretted in the end.
God please show me your way :'(

The one week I'm gonna spend here in Bandung

Heya all!

Finally the much-anticipated holiday in Indo is here. Yesterday I arrived in Jakarta at 1 pm and I reached Bandung at around 5 pm. Luckily there was no traffic jam and I managed to sleep the entire journey from SG to JKT as well as from JKT to BDG :)

Once I reached Bandung, I paid my grandma a visit. She has been sick the whole time and was really looking forward to seeing her grandchildren. I spent some quality time there before heading back home. Oh, and I drove again after so long. Not bad since my mom, who usually is very scared whenever I drive, didn't complain much about me driving LOL. After that, my parents took me for night porridge which was really good.

Today is my first full day in Indo. I spent my day lazying around with that 3-hour nap and more hours in front of TV. Time flied so fast today it's already 930 pm now. Oh well, at least I didn't waste the day entirely. My mom and I went to the immigration office to extend my passport which is gonna expire in less than 6 months. Oh well, not so bad huh :p

On another note, I'm really looking forward to seeing her on Sunday. It's been almost 5 months since the last time we met. Hopefully everything will run smoothly. Honestly, I have lots of questions marks roaming in my mind right now. And it appears that so it is for her too. What I have to do now is to be patient waiting for time to have the final say. Whatever it is, at least I know that I have tried. I don't want to be haunted by the saying "If you're in love but afraid to tell the person for some reason just think one moment of embarrassment or a lifetime of regret?"

Tomorrow is Saturday. I wonder if my friends will be available to go out with me. Otherwise, it's gonna be another lazy day. I plan to go wash my motorbike tomorrow and go for a massage or something lol. I hope this holiday is gonna be a fruitful one yeah. Bye and take care all!

I have been away from home for 3 years!

Heylo everyone!

Here is another post from me.

It's 11:11 pm here now. I just came back from November feast. It was one super fun event although it was pretty tiring. It started at 4 pm and it just ended at 10:30 pm -.-" tired tired exhausted!

Today is Nov 4th 2010. 2 days ago was my 3rd year anniversary here in Singapore. 3 years and 2 days ago, I was sitting in the staff lounge with my fellow Indonesian friends, curious and anxious about everything. We were being briefed by the teachers at this time. What a sweet memory it was!

My beautiful batch in 2007 :)

 

Gearing up for Teachers' Day performance in 2008

3 years from then, I have really changed into a different person. I've learned a lot of lessons from both good and bad things I experience here in Singapore. I learned that life is unfair, that being hated is not always bad, that friends are important but not everything. Today was the last day of school. This year passed so fast, like seriously. Half of my IB journey is already gone. Next year is already Year 6 when things are gonna get tougher and tougher. Although now is holiday, I still couldn't rest completely. There are still things to do such as EE and Econs IA. Still, at least there is something I could look forward to: going home next week!

Oh well I also want to thank the people who have been my source of strength this year. So yeah let's begin :D

God - Obviously He is the first Person I have to mention here. If not for him, I wouldn't be able to survive this year. After all, who has given me all those talents and goodness of life? I learned to grow closer to Him and seek Him even more everyday. I have been reading Bible everyday now and I aim to finish the entire Bible in one year this year! There were days when I was so tired I couldn't make myself read the Bible but oh well, God is always good and faithful even when we are faithless.

My parents - Year by year I grow to realize even more that God has blessed me and my brother with wonderful parents. Nowhere in this world could you find a dad and mom like mine. God placed me in this family for a reason and I'm sure of that. Now that I'm older, I can't thank them more for all the scoldings and words of wisdom although I used to despise them. They have shaped me to be who I am today and I will forever be thankful to them. Thanks mom and dad!

Adit - Hey bang. Thanks a lot for being a very good friend of me who is always there when I need a listening ear the most. Although honestly people always ask me why we are close friends, I'm very thankful that we indeed are. Having one best friend like you is better than having a hundred friends :) All the way in your effort to pursue her!

Gideon, Aldrian, Metew - Like it or not, you were my closest friends when you were all still in ACS. And I'm glad that we are still close now although we don't get to talk much these days. Thanks for being so supportive and always listening to me chirping my problems out. I know it might have made your ears tired and all but hey, I admit it was really nice talking my problems out with you all!

Liauw - Hola Liauw! Thanks for being a wonderful and terrific classmate! Like, I think I am 100x closer to you compared to last year haha. Anyway, we have been doing well so far in IB. Let's keep the momentum and rock Year 6 next year. 45 points ftw yeah? "We can do all things through God who strengthens us." :)

Vina - Haha finally I come to you! Thanks for being my wonderful far-away friend! Although we have only seen each other twice this year (once during reuni and once when we went out during June holiday), you don't mind to keep in touch through sms, msn, facebook or skype. I really appreciate it, like seriously! Yep so I hope to see you soon next week and also in December :)

All of my friends - Thanks all for being so supportive although I didn't get to spend much time with you all thanks to council stuffs and all. Thanks for being there always as good friends to me. Thank you!